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*total total surrender surrender

by leyla daze

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1.
my mind 01:52
my mind let it go i'm trying... let it go! i specialize in letting go.
2.
oh witch is the center of the soul of the city how the fuck we get there if we're beaten down? look at all the treasures look they're gold crystal pretty girl you gotta wander through this white tile town. ducking under branches to the wet thick forest find a sick skull and we set the scene if you cross your eyes turn your head the slightest... all the moss is purple but you think it's green all the moss is purple but you think it's green. it's green! further up we trip through the gold striped pathwaze rustle up a sluggie and we slurp him down even if you scream get a gem get a slime daze girl you gotta wander through this white tile town. girl you gotta wander through this white tile town. let's plant a golden forest and trip through the great domain will you be guardian for us we'll never come home again. we'll never come home again. we'll never come home again... coda: i try to make my way back from the forest every night and i find you there oh i try to make my way back from the forest every night and i find you there i try to make my way back from the forest every night and i find you there... oh i try to make my way back from the forest every night and i find you there... and i find you there and i find you there and i find you there... air.
3.
body autonomy naked green neoteny several fine lovers locked in sexual astronomy women to be grosser than the dirty man boy and a fresh sex toy for my rhythm to be school for you for my breath to suck truth men to fear her to be queerer than the weirdest curved mirror men to hear her hot consensual sodomy like pegasus's progeny space to fill your body like a minigolf monopoly pony boy slave beg that mom be gay for you i'm the bitch that's made for you we'll groove but i will slay for you we'll groove but i will slay for you... yeah-- ecstatic avenger take a great big plunger to it i'm through it and you're through my mind like a deep deep deep dark peace pipe. a conscience that is ripe and glazed sequence of relaxing days to be steeped in candy queer fluorescent ways to be greased in it to be greased in you cause all i want for wishlist is goo all i want for wishlist is goo all i want on you is goo all i want is...
4.
you're coming to the back now baby with the light and the right time you're trying to find out now baby what is right what is right? and i want to want to know and i want to want to go oh oh... goodnight goodnight. and i want to want to go and i want to want to go ooh goodnight goodnight! when it's all... when it's all over and done when it's all over it's done. when it's all over and done when it's all over it's all over and done. it's all over it's all over it's all...
5.
beastow, LA 02:46
sad boy i sad boy fire it around fire it around yeah oh fire it around i said boy. i'm in LA and it's not okay to take it i'm in LA and it's not okay to take it said i'm in LA and it's not okay to take it! yeah i'm in LA and it's not okay to take it... they wanna take it from you boy. they wanna take your freedom away they wanna take your sanity away they try to take your money away they wanna take your humility away now they wanna take your family away they try to take your worries away (nice) they wanna take your humanity away they wanna take your autonomy away... so why are you gonna take it from them boy?
6.
you bells 04:05
a millen- a millen- a millen- a millen-- faith got then to be faith got then to be faith got then to be shamanism. then to be... a millen- a millen- a millen- a millen-- if it's if it's...
7.
ghosty divide my body so that the me that is dream that is dream that is me can be split for your consumption there's a tiger in the water beside me me whose dream a being she can't get to can't a mind who roils inside who cannot hide she cannot get to I! unfit for friend and fit for crowd and fit for a crowd to be bowing to me. you get to get to get to get to use me to see. you get to get to get to get to use me to get you out.
8.
oh i... i... am tired. tired. tired. hey tired. hey tired. hey!
9.
i'm losing my mind! before it's time! daddy and brother wanna they wanna tell me i'm fine BUT i don't know what's real i don't know what's mine i don't know what's there and i don't know it's time I DON'T KNOW I DON'T KNOW. sunwater. hive mind. and sunwater. hive mind. and safety gems i'm losing my mind! before it's time! daddy and brother wanna they wanna tell me i'm fine... BUT i don't know what's real i don't know what's mine i don't know what's theirs and i don't know it's time I DON'T KNOW I DON'T KNOW! i don't know... i don't know... i don't know... sunwater. hive mind. and safety gems.
10.
when i see them talkin to their friends on the hell phone one two three twelve times today i slime inside the static of the flicker of the TV apartment only to find that you're already dead that's when I stalk the vein of the backstreet pull my coat and i dip my head synthetic you could save worlds with the pattern on the carpet but i look into your heart and i find you're dead. yeah you are you are dead yeah you are you are dead. dead, dead. ooh i'm trippin' up the backside headless way down to the stair she's gone proper with the wings of the reckless (turn that BPM to double) so you think i wanna be with people to be hiveless is to free, yeah! to be free can get lonely with the options keep on down to the deep deep darkness. i'm gifted those i love oh i'm strength for open land it's realer out in the middle the spirit's in your hand the spirit's in your hand go into the darkness ain't nobody there. ain't nobody there ain't nobody there you wanted to see me go into the darkness... ain't nobody there.
11.
first i'll go walking then i'll go wading in the tall grass in the waves there ooh first i go walking then i go wading in the tall tall tall tall tall grass chicka chee chee ah. ahh ooohhh ee chee ah haaaaa chee chee ah... first i'll go wading then i'll go walking in the tall grass in the waves there ooh. first i go walking then i go wading in the tall tall tall tall tall grass chicka chee chee ah then after the first cold shocks then i'll dive under. a ten ten ten ten foot wave... and there silence.
12.
slipped inside a bottle to see what i could see the feeling that they wanted simply wasn't me. i press into me why you press into me oh why i used to walk in the forest before the man with the gun i used to walk in the forest before the world was done out of the mist came a man a man with a gun... and up from the land came a woman. a woman... she was done. a woman... ohhh she was! she was.

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❤ surrendered with deep love for all beings ❤

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released November 22, 2019

additional synths by Charlie Epstein
backing vocals on flountain, LA by Heather Mulligan
mastering on greylaw hiveless by Josh Shirt in Fort Collins, Colorado
vocals on golden forest recorded in a pit toilet somewhere in northern Nevada

the following humans are responsible for my joy, and therefore this album:

Charlie Epstein, Sharon Goeller, Tom Goeller, Anneli Goeller, & Tom Dash. Feather Bear Kohn, Janey Lovechild, Xia Spiritbeing & Dreamers. Writer's Block poetry tribe in Boulder, Colorado. The PDX lovers, the JT lovers, the NYC lovers, and all the lovers in between.

Hypercore19 Records, Joshua Tree, CA

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